Saturday, April 25, 2009
A YEAR has passed and I am still missing him so0 much. The one and only one that I haven't got over from his passed. It was quite challenging and I had been dealing with almost quite alot of things. I may have done numerous,un-supposed thing. Well, at times when i get lonely...Mr 0ne and 0nly will always be there for me... comfort me, makes me laugh... when he's gone, i was kinda become a parasite. Clinging to someone or something that would make me smile. Sound sad but i'm not embarrassed though. Cause that was ME! (unfortunately).However, I never felt unfortunate and i appreciate those who have been around to make me smile. THANK YOU PEOPLE!!!THANK YOU SWEETHEART!!!Bob, named after my favourite singer back then. He's charming and sweet.I never thought that i'd be so0 attached to him and so0 was he to me. He's lovable, active and at times just being plain 'don't give a damn' cat. At times he's naggy. Whenever I'm sad, happy or plain boring, he will be around without fail.
Just having him as my best friend, I never could have asked for anything else. When the children around, he'll me hiding himself somewhere that no one can find him (unless if those kids when he knows). Children,especially the toddlers or newborn are sensitive with his 'species', i would feel sad not to have him by my side entertaining the kids. At the same time, he's scared and kids are sensitive. I would feel relief when all the kids went home, then i can hug him and entertain him, most of all irritate him. He sleeps with me and at times with my parents. The routine was always, mom's ro0m first then in the early morning like 3am, would be on my bed.
When i have to wake up early in the morning to study, he would be awake to0 and accomapny me outside. Sometimes he dose to sleep. When he sleeps, i would wake him up... hehehe... Just a little fun... :D
When he was away, i was kind of lost and at times I feel insecured and depressed. Who knows what happened to him there?Will he have enough fo0d?Warmth?He slept outside my grandma house. If only i have my own house, i would have never let him stay at my grandma's house. Unfortunately he has to0 cause my parents thought its for his best. (i still think it's a mistake).
How he die was the worst!I wish i could have stayed with him for the rest of his life in this world. It was hard for me to forgive myself and I still find it hard to believe that he's gone. But, someone told me once a life is gone, is gone... Cherished the moment you had with him/her when they're still alive.Memory is all that is left and memory is now my companion of him.
Today, it's time to let the past go down the river and flows to the end of the world. He will always be in my heart PERMANENTLY!! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!!!
Here's my memory and the last pic i to0k with him... (i made a video but i couldn't upload it,sadly)
