Saturday, April 24, 2010
I read about this new movie, "The Back-up Plan" acts Jennifer Lopez and this new or not that i know of actor...
It's about this woman who is single and wanted a baby... So0 she went for this thing that injected frozen semen into her to get pregnant. On the day she had the procedure, was on the day she met a guy...
Things started to happen... Well... Let me just cut off the spoiler to there only... The thing is that this 'The Back-up Plan' was what i had in mind like 4 years ago... When i was 18 years old... You can call me fo0lish but i'm not lying and it's the facts...
Then, before I met Mr Love... I had met alot of guys whom, well, cut my heart out and pull it out from my throat to my mouth and eventually threw it on the flo0r and smashed,mashed, name it...My heart became tomato sauce... Or in other simpler words everyone would recognise... My heart broke into pieces... Kind of suck to go through all that moments...
So0, i told myself that there isn't or perhaps wasn't any guy that are go0d enough for me. Why would you want to hurt yourself with guys that utterly don't even want you? or need you to be precise?? Why would you want to be with a guy that does not appreciate you for who or what you are??? It's rather being alone and be hurt not because by another stupid,fo0lish creature that you adored...
However, i do want to have family of my own... So0 i had some crazy plan...or so0 i thought it is...
Similarly, I had the plan to have semen injected in me... But that would be sinful cause im not married and it is similarly like having pre-marital sex... Another way was just, get married to a guy who doesn't want commitment... Get married,get pregnant and get a divorce after giving birth... No charge at all... Crazy!!! Yeah!!!
That was just crazy... Nonetheless, I know somewhere out there, and deep down inside of me, someone adores me and was just waiting for me to be found. He's searching for me but i've lost my way in the woods and he has yet to found me...
I know i did had crazy ideas... But i was just 18 years old... It's scary to lo0k at everyone who was once in love - broken to pieces, you know... I longed for a love that is like no other than what i've seen. Although along the way i met some guys who may have been Mr Perfect, it was never close to being the love i've dreamt for... There wouldn't be any romantic dinner at a garden with candle lights and roses and just a beautiful dress that flatters my figure... There wouldn't be any... This kind never existed(so0 i thought)...
Till I met Mr Love... Everything changed... N for a fact, I ain't going to do that... However so0, there's still one option left... Adoption... That's all there is... Anyways, the movie just remind me of the plan i had back then...That's all... hahha...