Monday, October 4, 2010
I'm dead tired
Usually when i get into fights i would tried so0 hard to reason with everything. Starts with defense and disagreement followed by reasons and outcomes end with conclusions. I always wonder what went wrong?Search for answers and the meaning of what's happening.Conclusion is to forgive and forget or to learn about one another and understand each other's characteristic. Another factor, shit happens and sometimes its karma.
After so0 much fights, hurt, fear and all that is in between. I beginning to feel tired and couldn't be bothered. I'm tired of reasoning and i'm tired to be the one that cares alot more than the other. It is hurtful to think and devastated to understand the meaning. Sometimes the meaning can be divided into multiples means which then lead to even deeper misunderstanding of situations.
I may be angry or turn to green (HULK) in some situations but it may not be what it may seems. All there is can be some thoughts saying,'what's next?' or 'i just want to breakdown..' or even sometimes wondered 'if we never have met?'...'How different can life be?'...'Is this the way life is?'
Too many questions so0 little time...I'm dead tired!!! I just couldn't be bothered anymore...At least that's what im feeling right at this moment... Hmmm.....