Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I just lost a friend whom we've been together for more than 10 years. What had happened; is still unclear to me...
It is indeed sad to have lost with someone you called your own but it isn't my choice and it was hers...What else can i do but to accept the fact that she doesn't want to be friends with me as well as to respect her decision.
Knowing her, she is stubborn, selfish (in a way), and always lo0k out for trouble (rebellious in other word)... However, she is also a trustworthy, friendly and bubbly (in a way)... I never thought she would decide to have it this way... I'm just being concern and it is sad that your own friend wants to end friendship... For all i know, friendship lasts forever... And the most irritating part is -the reason is because i have a bf and other friends and it's her excuse to get away from me and also that she said 'she is not fit to be my friend cause of her ego and i will get hurt being her friend' (even so0 she wouldn't have any friends at all if she doesn't want her friends to get hurt???)... = Leave me with an enormous question marks ???????
Nevertheless, partially it is my fault. But somehow i don't know exactly what's the reason. Maybe its because i may have revealed some stuff to her out of anger...Maybe i have been pain in the ass for years and years... Maybe all i ever give her are advise and reasons... I thought i'd be the one that gave up on her but though i did once or twice, i never stop care for my friends... When im in silent doesn't mean i don't give a damn... But whatever the reason is,if im at fault, forgive me Allah for me i don't know what's the wrong... If it is the way she wants...Then let it be... May Allah protect us from all evil... May Allah be fair... Insya'allah...